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i'm sad...the rain made me sad...the rain made me want to cuddle under a blanket and hug somebody for warmth...it stirred some memories i've rather forget...of you...of me...not so long ago...cuddling under a blanket during one rainy night.we were laughing hard at really nothing in particular, we were just plainly having a good time. those were the rare moments we were genuinely having fun, spending quality time together. i curse myself, for admitting that despite the misery, there was a time in our relationship we were really being a couple...acting out our part. i curse myself, for letting these memories ruin the fortress i have built around myself to keep people like you out...to keep people from hurting me again... i don't know if i'll hate you or i'll hate myself...maybe i'll just hate the rain...