here we are again..i guess we are back to square one...or maybe it was just one of those delusions i got that we moved forward.
we fought again...this time we had an exchange of mean messages. i believe most of them were true that's why it hurts so much. but still truth is a bitter pill.
you told me that i am selfish..that i have a way of messing up the good things...is'nt that a bit unfair? all this time, whatever we have is under your terms...in your own time. i never asked anything except for the truth. what i mean to you and what all this is to you. you always have a way of masking things by succumbing to silence. you assume that things are ok just because we don't argue about it. little did you know that i'm just waiting for you to initiate the conversation just as you promised..still waiting for you to come around.
i don't want to pressure you to go into a relationship because i know very well that you are not ready for one. you're still tied to your past...and i'm so sorry if i have to tell it to your face that you need to move on. sorry if i needed to rub it to your face that you need to embrace the fact that she's gone and that she chose to throw a 5 year relationship down the drain because of some random guy she went out while you were away busy building your lives.
i refuse to be insulted by the fact that you think all i wanted out of all of this is a freakin' relationship...but you continue to drown whatever self respect i have by assuming i'm going to settle with that kind of crap because i'm being my selfish self...that's according to you.. you even said that i was too demanding. i am not. im just merely stating the fact that you need to move on and you need to embrace the reality that thare are things no matter how bad you want something, it does not moean it's for you. not everything is meant for us...maybe i should learn that too.
yeah..practice what you preach jam...
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