it's hard to go out...to hold hands...and to kiss when you're not sure if the person you're sharing these moments with is happy that you are the one he is sharing it with or if he secrectly wishes at the back of his mind that you were someone else.
i'm afraid...for one because i'm falling in love with somebody whom i have no idea about what he trully feels for me. maybe this is what one gets, when one does things without thinking...headstrong...head first. you get bumped...you get bruised. i'm blind...i'm thriving in the dark. i try to do things eventhough i really don't know half of what of i'm doing...all i know is that the other half wants to do it...needs to do it. i throw all my cares to the wind, hoping against hope that you'll catch my fall.
i'm not the insecure type. i always knew where i stood in a person's life. however, right now i feel like i'm competing with a ghost...the ghost of his past relationship. his one great love...the person who most people refer to as "the one who got away" the one who'll he'll always remember with tears in his eyes, the person he loved the most...and lost.
and so i'm afraid...because i know i'm never gonna be that person for you...
♥MONOKURO BOO♥