though it had been said a thousand times before "when it's over...it is over" is easier said than done. walking away from one of the most meaningful relationships you've ever had is hard but being happy knowing that that happiness is causing somebody else grief is harder. not because you still feel the same way but because one person's life fell apart because you were in pursuit of your happiness...happiness that does'nt include him.
for a while you get confused. you get torn between what would make you happy and bringing happiness to others. you realize that not all things end well...that not all people would move on the same pace as you had. you tried to make him understand...you tried your hardest hoping somehow it would ease whatever pain he was feeling...you tried damn hard with everything that you had but at the end you realize that you have been fighting a battle you were'nt supposed to be fighting in the first place. you realize that you owe it to yourself to be happy. that it was high time that you stopped thinking about other people and what makes them happy. you start not to care if he was begging or crying or pleadin'...you stop answering his calls and messages...you want to make sure that this time he would know that you mean it...that things would be different. because this time you've fallen in love with somebody who makes your world spin and stop all at the same time...in other words, somebody who you know you'll love "maybe" more than you had ever loved him...because if it were otherwise, you would'nt be walking away, you would'nt be saying goodbye...for good.
and so you say your final piece...you heed to your curtain call and bow as if to tell them that it was fun...it was all good...that it was worthwhile...but it's time for you to go.
never mind that he is trying to get through you by appealing to pity. never mind that he'd been flooding your mobile phone with messages telling you that bidding him goodbye is as good as taking away his life...you now know that whatever he is feeling, he will eventually get over...in time...just like you did...
♥MONOKURO BOO♥