emotionally and financially abused.

as far as i can remember, never..not even once had i found myself engaged in an arguement with my significant other about money.

i'm not really the generous type, but i don't mind spending a little for the people i care about. and when i do, i don't find myself using that against them nor do i go around and complain about the fact that i spend more than they do to anyone who would care to listen.
i feel good when i do something for the ones i love. i'm happy seeing them happy. but i always believed that there is always a line that we need to draw. that does'nt mean that you love the person less but you just want to remind him that girlfriend IS NOT = ATM.

i dont mind paying for food and dates the first few times, all i wanted was to spend time with you. i did'nt even mind giving you some gas money because i thought "hey, the guy fetches me to and fro work most of the time, why not cut him some slack by pitching in some gas money.." so i did. not long after that, i started paying for your lunch and guess what? your gas expenses almost on a daily basis. ggeezzz...how stupid can i get? for the first few months, i remained composed, i told myself this all would pass. but no, i did'nt. because you continuously abuse me or maybe i let you continuously abuse me...there's a difference.

so i came to the end of my rope, and like a dormant volcano that has'nt errupted for a long time...i finally did.
for god's sake you're not a bum. we work for the same company, you even make more than i do! i don't want to ask you where you spend your money because it is your money, and i'm in no position to demand that information, but for you to expect me to give you allowance for food and gas when you get to spend yours , saying that it is unfair is an understatement.

i'm angry but a larger part of me is sad. disappointed. i don't know, words fail to describe what i'm feeling right now. more than i want to blame you, i think i have myself to blame too. this happened because i let it happen.
it's hard when you tend to believe in the best of people because more often that not you're just in for helluva lot of disappointments.