Monokuro Boo

...refuge...

i thought about you... and i thought about him..and everything in between.
i'm keeping a secret and sometimes it is more tha n i can handle.. it haunts me like a shadow, it follows me even in my dreams. it comes to me when i least expect it but always at the right time. the timing so right, i always find myself wallowing in the pool of infidelity...

yes, i am not the angel that you thought i was. i deceive you more often than you think i do and i always manage to get away with it. i'm getting so good at playing this game i don't know if i can stop. i dont know if i even want to stop to begin with.

sometimes i look back so i can remember how it started, when did i first start taking this path towards things i could not have.

i sometimes want to blame you for turning me into a cynical person. you had shown me dishonesty to a point that i think i'll never be able to trust you completely again. i am a product of all your lies. and now, it is my turn.

a part of me feels sorry because i am hiding behind the mask of infidelity to conceal my insecurities, but this is the only way that i can protect myself...from you.

♥MONOKURO BOO♥

BECAUSE OF YOU - kelly clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it outI cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fakeA smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

♥MONOKURO BOO♥