no matter how may times i have said it, it never fails to give out an air of finality.

i guess thats what makes it difficult. knowing that once all has been said and done, it can be irrevocable. there would be no turning back. no retakes. no buttons to press rewind.

so how do you really know that it is over? that it is the right time to leave a part of our lives in the past where they rightfully belong and look forward to what the new day will bring.

how do you explain why you are packing your bags? how do you say it? what would be the best words to use when you are about to tell the people you love that you would be leaving...and you can't take them with you...and most probably you'll never be coming back.

if there has been one thing i have learned the hard way, it's that you keep it as simple as you can. you don't try to explain because we all know that no amount of explaining can make them understand why you have to go. even the most eloquent of tongues can never come up with a nobel-prize winning piece when it comes to saying goodbye.

because it is meant to be hard. and it is meant to hurt both you and the other person.

so you pack your bags. take one sweeping look at the room, so you won't ever forget. then, you take a step at a time and before you reach the door, you go ahead and allow yourself that one final glimpse of the person that you would be leaving behind. you look them in the eyes as if you're saying sorry. as if you want to say something, something that would ease the pain. but words fail you. you feel the words lodge in your throat and they refuse to come out.

so you muster all that is left of your courage and determination and you take that final step outside. and with head held down, the final click upon the door was heard.

and then you let go.

you walk away and then

you

let

go.